Monday, November 30, 2009

Fooey on Monday

Why is it that I never get stuck in traffic when my stomach is full and my bladder is empty?

Why does stuff get spilled on a freshly steamed carpet?

How is it that I manage to slam my fingers in my desk drawer after the first manicure (that I did on my own) in months?

If my skin is mature enough for wrinkles, shouldn't it be too mature for the giant pimple that showed up on my chin today?

Good thing that tomorrow is another day!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Resting

Today was exhausting. Had some trouble sleeping last night in anticipation of today's surgery, and then just the whole process of being prepped and the surgery itself completely wiped me out. After general anesthesia, I just want to sleep and sleep...it's so hard for me to stay awake! I did, though, because I knew the longer I was awake, the sooner I could go home.

And here I am...home. Actually, I've been home for a few hours now, resting on the couch. Of course, by "resting", I mean sleeping on and off in between playing on the computer. I'm uncomfortable, which is to be expected, but doing okay. Some anxiety is settling in, which I'm managing fairly well. It's just the anxiety of not knowing when the biopsy results will be in, and then when they are, what they'll turn out to be. There's no point in thinking about it right now, but it's still a little hard to put it out of my mind.

On a lighter note, I had a fun conversation with my kiddo earlier about why the doctor didn't use pink thread to sew me up the way I do when I sew up Baby Pink. (Baby Pink is her favorite stuffed bear that's as old as she is, getting kind of tattered, and no longer really pink, but a washed-out shade of gray despite numerous washings and scrubbings and oxi-clean.)

The hubs is doing a good job taking care of me...got dinner for us and is keeping my cold water supply regularly replenished. I don't know why, but I had some bleeding in my throat this time from the anesthesia. I know it's a risk, I just never had it before. Good thing I've got pain meds--that'll help a lot, even though that's not even what the meds are for.

I'm looking forward to a decent night's sleep and feeling more like myself tomorrow. I'm feeling pretty sure that I'll be up and about for turkey on Thursday and The Nutcracker on Sunday. Yay!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Life is Better with Chili

Yay for chili! I made some yesterday--sort of non-traditional chili--my own concoction/recipe. I baked some chicken breasts, then shredded 'em and tossed 'em in a crock pot with some pinto beans, black beans and great northern beans, added some chicken broth, diced up some sweet peppers and then dumped in a can of diced tomatoes with green chilies. Cranked it up on high for 3 hours and voila!

I should add that I'm the only one in the house eating it. But that's okay...more for me! And it was especially yummy today. I like leftover chili, maybe even more than I like same-day made chili. Good comfort food.

And why do I need comfort food? Because life has been kinda stinky the past few months. I'm not really complaining. I have a lot to be very thankful for and I'm not overlooking that. It's just that the holiday season is here, money is still pretty tight, and I'm having another surgery next Tuesday. My OB/GYN is taking over for this surgery...there's a tumor-ish thing in/on/near a lymph node, but closer to the reproductive region than my bladder, so she'll be temporarily taking over. It's back to Hottie Doc in January for my next follow up.

I am so glad I have good coverage through my health insurance. And I guess by sheer luck, the timing is working out really well. With Thanksgiving being next week, I was already going to be off work for a few days, so I don't have to use as much benefit time as I would need to otherwise. My other surgery was around the 4th of July holiday and I lucked out that time, too.

Well, I guess that's enough random info for now. I've got a kiddo who I've barely seen in the past week because I've been working so many hours. More nonsense later...

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Looking Forward to Monday

I can hardly wait to get back to work tomorrow...so I can get some rest!

This weekend was ridiculously busy. Got home late Friday from work, did some laundry and made dinner. Saturday the hubs was gone all day...made a big breakfast, went shopping in the morning, took care of the kiddo, made meals, picked up around the house, packed away the Halloween decorations, started making a quilt and made cookies. Had fantastic one on one time with my kiddo, and I'm not complaining about that at all. Today, I finished making the quilt I started yesterday, picked up more around the house, made cookies (again--for the hubs's poker friends), cleaned a little more, broke the kitchen faucet, banged my head on a cabinet, making dinner right now...

And all of this was completed while on crisis call for work.

Yikes! I'm not complaining, really, just feeling a little worn out. Gotta get dinner out of the oven now.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

This and That (Again)

I just can't seem to get my groove back! And I'm not talking about dancing!

I've had a little more energy these days, which is nice, but still that low-level of fatigue constantly hanging over me. I know a lot of it is emotional baggage. Things at home are tense, but not anybody's fault. We got a notice in the mail that our COBRA payment is more than doubling because the hubby's former employer changed policies, which means our cost goes up. We're paying more for a crappy policy. Nice, huh? But we found that out after we got a notice in the mail that he was terminated from COBRA for failure to pay! Thankfully, we had all the certified receipts saved and proof that all the checks had cleared. It turns out, when the former employer changed policies on October 1st, they failed to notify COBRA until October 12th, which was after we had already made the October payment in the previous amount. Boneheads. I don't know if I'm more ticked off at the former employers for not following protocol or at COBRA for being so quick to terminate. It's fine now, though I have to figure out where the extra money is going to come from--our income has gone down by a lot, and our costs have only gone up. I get the fact that it's a dog-eat-dog world out there, but none of them seem to understand that they're f-ing (sorry, language, language, I know) with real people's lives. I'm continuing to pray that my daughter doesn't get sick in the next month, because we're hoping to find private insurance for her, but right now she doesn't qualify because of her history of health problems. If we can get her through the next month (or better yet, through the end of the year) with no major illnesses, we should be able to pick up a policy for less than the COBRA costs. I am so thankful every single day that my employer continues to provide health insurance. Such a relief, especially with my current medical issues.

Speaking of medical issues, I've been waiting patiently and nervously for the availability of the H1N1 vaccine. My kiddo and I aren't candidates for the current nasal-spray version of the vaccine because of my history of asthma and her history of major breathing issues, so we have to wait until the shot becomes available--and right now, they're not available at all in our area. We've been extra diligent about hand washing and wiping down commonly touched surfaces in the house. Today, I bought some extra handy-wipes and alcohol swabs for wiping down things in public. I was in Target this morning and was shocked at the number of people out and about who were obviously ill, but not practicing good hygiene. Disgusting. Even my 4-year-old knows to cough and sneeze into her elbow and to use tissue for her nose. And of course, we encourage regular and frequent hand-washing. We don't use anti-bacterial soap in our house because of sensitive skin issues, but we use regular old foaming hand soap and wash for 20-30 seconds. I think that does the trick equally as well.

Halloween was good this year. This was my kiddo's first time actually being healthy and well enough to trick-or-treat at more than three houses! It was cold outside, but we bundled her up and had so much fun. We went out for about an hour, then came home and warmed up. She went back out with her dad for another 45 minutes and I stayed in and made dinner. The kiddo was a pirate (and a cute one!); daddy was a ghost; I was supposed to be a pirate, too, but that fell through. I ended up being an '80s chic, retro...something. Given the comment I got from a neighborhood dad, I think I looked a little trampy, though that wasn't my intention. I had big hair, big make-up, big boots, big jewelry, big everything. Total '80s iconic get-up. It was still fun. It took 10 minutes of rubbing and scrubbing to eliminate the purple eyeliner and red lipstick when all was said and done.

The Halloween cake I had planned was a total bust. I won't share the details. It just didn't work out and I was very sad to dump it in the garbage.

Listen to me being all rambling and long-winded here. I guess that's what happens when I go long stretches in between posts. I'll work on getting better about that. I've had a lot on my mind lately--lots of stuff that I could share, but words aren't coming easily these days. I'll keep working at it. More nonsense later...