Saturday, October 24, 2009

Wanted: More Weekend, Less Weekday

What a hectic week...whew! I'm glad it's Saturday, but the day is nearly over and I still have so much to do. Booooo.

Went to the doctor on Tuesday for my procedure and was relieved that the doctor didn't find any new tumors. Yay! My chance of recurrence dropped from 80% to 50%, which to me, is a big deal.

Work was a bit of a nightmare, especially toward the end of the week, but I hesitate to's a job, right? I am taking a few days off next week in anticipation of Halloween. I've almost finished a plan for a Halloween cake and I'm going to need a day to decorate it. Heck, even if that wasn't the case, I'd take the time off anyway, just to be able to mellow out and breathe.

I'm just relaxing tonight. Spent the afternoon celebrating my grandma's 80th birthday; kiddo will be heading to bed in about 45 minutes, and then I'm on my own. The hubs is playing in a poker tournament tonight--for someone who can't concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes at a time, I'm really impressed with his poker-playing abilities. He's in first place in the local tournament and tonight, he's trying his hand at something called a super-satellite tournament (? I think that's what it's called) where he has a chance to earn a seat in another tournament, and that winner goes to the World Series of Poker. I think that's pretty neat. If nothing else, it gets him out of the house for a while and lets me have some peace and quiet. Yay!

Monday, October 19, 2009


Well, tomorrow is my follow up with Hottie Doc and my next procedure. Nothing like a little humiliation early in the day to get the blood pumping. I've convinced myself that during the scope, HD will tell me that I have three aliens growing in my bladder. That way, I'll be much more relieved when (NOT IF!) he tells me things look good and that there are no more tumors, no more cancer.

Of course, even if he does find something, I'll still be relieved, because really, I'm not keen on the idea of three aliens growing in my bladder.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

My So-Called Life

I giggle when I'm nervous. At this exact moment, I feel a surge of shrill, maniacal laughter bubbling up in the back of my throat. Have you ever had a day...or maybe a whole week...where it's just one thing after another that's going wrong?

And then after a particularly bad event, you have the foolhardy thought of something along the lines of, "Well, what else can go wrong?"

And then holy buckets, something else does go wrong?? It's too much to get into here, and I know in the long run everything will turn out fine and I'll be able to look back on this and see it as just one more thing that I got through, but sheesh.

I think it was Popeye who said, "I tooks alls I can takes and I can't takes no more!" I'm almost at that point. Almost. I'm going to go drown my nervous giggles in my dinner. I'm making spinach tonight...HA!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

The Past 6 Months as a Mastercard Commercial

April 2009~ Not feeling great. Another UTI and kidney infection. Visit family doctor. Co-pay: $40

April 2009~ Labs and blood work. Results suspicious. See family doctor again. She recommends a specialist. Co-pay: $40

May 2009~ Annual girlie checkup. Cervical cancer scare. Ovarian cyst hurting. Co-pay: $40

May 2009~ Appointment with urologist. Co-pay: $60

June 2009~ Follow-up with urologist and routine scope. Tumor discovered. Co-pay: $60

June 2009~ Husband's job lost. Income substantially reduced.

July 2009~ Surgery. REALLY EXPENSIVE, but covered by insurance. (Thank goodness I have I my own insurance!)

July 2009~ Follow up with urologist. Diagnosed with cancer. Co-pay: $60

July 2009~ Kidney stone and gallbladder attack. Trip to ER. Ultrasound, CT scan, blood work and a bunch of labs. Almost as expensive as the surgery. Co-pay: $250

August 2009~ Labs. Expensive. So glad I have insurance.

August 2009~ Follow-up visit with dermatologist for eczema. Referral not ready in time. Office visit: $119

September 2009~ Sick. So sick. Visit with family doctor. Co-pay: $40

October 2009~ More lab work. Super expensive. Have I mentioned how glad I am that I have insurance?!

October 2009~ Sick again, but not as bad as in September. Follow-up with family doctor. Labs not looking good, but for the most part, I'm okay. Still sick, so I can't get a flu shot. Co-pay: $40

October 2009 (pending)~ Follow-up with urologist for another scope to make sure no more cancer has popped up. Co-pay: $60

Tonight~ Spouse out with friends and child peacefully asleep. Ignoring mountain of laundry that needs folding and 5 bags from Target with household supplies needing to be put away. Ice-cream in the freezer waiting for me to eat it and a rented movie waiting for me to watch it...PRICELESS!

Sunday, October 04, 2009

It's a Poker Cake!

Happy 34th birthday to my husband today! And because I can't seem to let a birthday pass without making some kind of cake, this is for your viewing pleasure...