Saturday, November 29, 2008

Quiet Saturday

I'm getting a little stir-crazy--I haven't been out of the house since Tuesday for anything besides medical appointments. Even so, it's been pretty quiet around here. We had a quiet Thanksgiving at home, just kind of hung out on Friday and started putting up Christmas decorations today. Even though she's sick, the little one started showing some excitement after the tree was up. We ate dinner and then she dozed in my lap while we listened/watched Celtic Woman on PBS. It was a nice end to the day. Now, I'm just going have some more quiet time before I go to bed, too.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving

I think most people are thankful for the, homes, family, health, etc. That's sort of a given, right? I got to thinking about what else I'm thankful for, sort of beyond those basics.

I'm thankful (and not just at Thanksgiving!) for the 2 paramedics who saved my life three and a half years ago...thank you Dave and Scott!

I'm also thankful for the team of surgeons who collaborated on my eye case--no thanks to the little (or kinda big) problem with my corneas. I'm thankful to Dr. D, Dr. S and Dr. L who did the initial consultations. I'm thankful to Dr. P who did the actual procedures...the LASIK part was pretty cool and relatively painless, but the other cornea stuff that was taken care of--well--not not so cool and not so painless. I had some serious hurtin' going on for a few hours afterward. But the doc did a phenomenal job and at my 24-hour checkup this morning, I found out that the surgery worked so well, it looks like I WON'T be needing a cornea transplant anytime soon. Yay! (Thanks for the cheerful delivery of the good news Dr. L! That was a great way to start our Thanksgiving morning!)

I'm incredibly thankful for our wonderful little girl is continuing to struggle, but Dr. J is the best! This is a man who gave me his personal cell phone number so that I could call him today (TODAY! Yes, on Thanksgiving!) and give him a status report on my daughter. He kept her out of the hospital for Thanksgiving, and even though we had to cancel our family plans, we're still celebrating in our own way at home, just us. I'm thankful that even though her airways are still badly constricted and she's running a fever, she gets to be home with mommy, instead of in a hospital surrounded by strangers.

I'm thankful for my family, who helps out with my little one...especially taking over the intense care she requires when I start to lose my patience. And I'm thankful for their help around the house. I may not always like the way or the order in which they do things, but I'm thankful they're getting done and that I don't have to do them.

I'm thankful for my KitchenAid Stand Mixer.

And I'm thankful for my Frigidaire, glass cooktop, electric convection oven. It was the one appliance I insisted on when we moved into our house in 2005 and I haven't been sorry yet! Today, I've turned out 16 dozen cookies--a mix of Snickerdoodle, Double Chocolate Mint, M&M, and regular chocolate chip. Yummy.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone. What are you thankful for this year?

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Things I've Learned...

I've learned several things over the past few days...

1. There's a nifty product called Dryel that will take most of the puke stains out of a wool coat. I was very impressed. After my daughter got sick all over me on Thursday (and I'm grateful that this time it was on me right at the front door and not inside the car like last time), I thought for sure the coat was a goner, but it doesn't look too bad. It sat out on the deck overnight the first night. Then my dear hubby was kind enough to pick the frozen chunks off of it. (Thanks honey!) I bought the Dryel a while back and forgot we even had it. I followed the instructions, and other than one area right on the front (that took the brunt of the barf-o-rama), it's pretty clean! I'm going to Dryel it again and see what happens. Keep your fingers crossed for me...

2. It's a lie when the eye doctor says that after being dilated, your (MY) eyes will be back to normal after a few hours. I had my eyes dilated at 11:00 yesterday morning. They were still dilated when I went to bed last night. They were still dilated when I woke up this morning. They started going back to normal late this afternoon. Sheesh!

3. The people who are supposed to love and support you the most are sometimes the people who are the meanest and most inconsiderate.

4. Weekend television is terrible. Since I couldn't see very well (see #2) to play on the computer or read a book, I was limited to television. We don't have cable, and it stinks!

5. My arms are flabbier than I realized. Time to start doing some push ups...

6. New Kids on the Block aren't that cool anymore. They were awesome when I was 12, but I saw them on the music awards tonight and laughed the whole time.

7. Being a parent is hard work. Like I didn't know that already! This weekend just reinforced it.

8. I still enjoy a good scare. Just for kicks, I watched H20--Halloween: Twenty Years Later. I hadn't watched it since before my daughter was born. I was completely creeped out.

9. I need to smile more. That furrow between my eyebrows is getting deeper and deeper.

10. I love nachos. I haven't eaten nachos in ages, but I had some tonight and they were goooooood. Now, I have to go work out...

Friday, November 21, 2008

Baby Steps

My baby cakes is making baby steps toward recovering! No ER visit last night or this morning, thank goodness. It got a bit nutty for a while, but she's starting to pull through. We started her breathing meds late this morning once we were pretty sure she could tolerate them and as of right now, her lips, fingers and toes are no longer edged in blue, which is a fantastic sign! They're still a little purplish, and her skin is still really white, but her oxygen levels are up and it doesn't sound like she's drowning when she breathes. Whew! And even better, she's actually kept down two crackers, a few rice noodles and about 6 ounces of water since this afternoon. Yay!

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers during this latest episode...she gave us quite a scare!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Even if you don't believe in God...

...can you pray for my daughter and/or send some positive mental energy my way? My little one is quite sick again and not doing well. It started with a suspicious cough in the middle of the night last night and she just couldn't sleep. It escalated and she started sounding worse, so we got an appointment with the pediatrician. The visit went okay--he changed up a few meds and gave us some new instructions--but we're on standby right now to see if we'll be heading to the ER. Her breathing is getting more shallow and raspy, but she can't take the medicine she needs because she's vomiting so badly and so frequently. It's like her little body is just shrinking in front of me. She lost a half pound since this morning, most likely fluid loss from the vomiting and fever, but it's still scary to see.

I love her to pieces, but I can say in all honesty that raising her isn't quite what I expected it to be. That's not to say I'm unhappy as her mommy--I love her too much to ever be unhappy about that! It's just different, you know? I see my beautiful (and quite healthy) nieces and nephews; I see my friends and co-workers with their children...and they seem so, well...normal. Does that make sense? I mean, they get their fair share of cuts and scrapes, viruses and infections, and my youngest nephew (and his mommy, my poor sister!) had a terrifying MRSA ordeal when he was a baby. Kids get sick, of course, but most of the people I know just deal with the run-of-the-mill stuff. My kiddo is just a little different. If you're interested, I posted a little bit about it on the blog I have with my sisters.

Anyway, her father is holding her and rocking her right now, giving me a much needed break. I would work day and night to take care of her (and believe me when I say I have), but honestly, I was starting to feel a little emotionally un-glued after the past six hours. I'm very grateful that he's here tonight and that he's not the kind of guy who thinks he shouldn't have to take care of a sick child. While he's taking care of her, I'm going to start the next load of sodden towels. It's going to be a long night...

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The Beat Goes On...

I'm still here, still alive, still breathing. Heart's still ticking. Wait...yes, yes, it's still ticking. Whew!

I miss blogging. I've got lots to share, but not much time to post. It's been busy at work and busy at home and I'm dealing with some other stuff. Nothing bad. Well, not really bad. But that's another I don't have time to share right now. Maybe later.

I'm going to catch up on reading blogs, then go to bed. I promise more worthwhile posting will be coming soon.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Long Week

I'm behind on blogging. I'm behind on reading everyone else's blogs. I'm behind on housework. I'm behind on regular work. I'm behind on...well...pretty much everything. And just for tonight, I'm going to be okay with that.

It's 8:12pm, and I think I'm going to take a shower and go to bed.

More nonsense later...

Saturday, November 08, 2008

My Little Drama Queen

I took a few shots of my kiddo today, in an effort to begin the process of finding an appropriate picture to include in our holiday cards.

I don't know if it's the tilted head or the skyward eyes, but I see a future for her in theater...

Oh dear. My little one got a hold of the keyboard and changed my template without me knowing. Note to self...don't walk away with the kiddo sitting at the computer. To her credit, it's not a bad template. It's one I had before. I'm just bummed that the pictures and my link lists are gone. That'll take a little time to restore. Oh well.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Blah, Blah, Blah

Don't mind the new template and color changes. I'm just playing around, trying to come up with something I like. I've been searching online for something other than the standard blogger templates and I haven't found anything that jumps out at me.

I'm home from work today with my little one...poor kid just can't seem to catch a break. She can catch everything else when it comes to germs and viruses, but she can't catch a break from it all. She had an appointment with the pediatrician yesterday and it turns out that she's got an infection again. Her little lungs are all clogged up and icky--we're back to breathing treatments three times a day, an inhaler 1-2 times a day, plus an antibiotic. I'm trying not to be sad about it, because we had a pretty good stretch of time where she was actually healthy, but I'm her mommy and I can't help but feel a little sad. And a lot guilty. Guilty that I can't just stay home with her and avoid the whole daycare situation. Of course, that may not mean anything--she's vulnerable to these types of infections, and the pediatrician has reassured me repeatedly that even without daycare, she'd most likely be sicker than an average kid anyway. He tells me, too, that all of this will mean she'll probably be healthier later in life, and that comforts me a little.

It does look like there'll be a change in plans this weekend because we were going to take an extended weekend and head to Wisconsin for a baby shower. My brother-in-law and his wife are expecting twins in February, which is super-exciting, but with our little one being sick, one of us has to stay home and take care of her. This is entirely for her own protection. She's not really contagious, but I don't want to put a pregnant woman at risk. Plus, all the meds weaken her immune system and leave her vulnerable to catching all kinds of stuff from other people.

Ah well. The good news is that no matter what, tomorrow is Friday! I'm looking forward to the weekend. My dining room is a disaster. It's temporarily housing all of my craft projects and I'm determined to get that all cleaned up on Saturday.

More nonsense later...

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

I can't come up with a title for this post. Mostly, I just want to say that I'm very sad how people absolutely lose their marbles during election time. The most level-headed, sane people I know suddenly become un-hinged, un-glued, un-something, and say such unkind things, I can't even believe it. All I know is that every vote does count and I cast mine. I'm proud of my decision, no matter what the outcome is. I hope anyone reading this feels the same. Your voice was heard, your ballot was counted and we live in a great, great country.
**Update: Right after I published this post, I got an e-mail from my friend Natalie, and after seeing years-long friendships disintegrate because of polar opinions on this Presidential race, I felt compelled to share it.
There comes a point in your life when you realize:

Who matters,

Who never did,

Who won't anymore,

...And who always will.

So, don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future. Give these flowers to everyone you don't want to lose in 2008, including me, if that's what is in your heart. Try to collect 12; it's not easy!

Unplanned Day Off

I spontaneously took a vacation day today! I know, it's hard to imagine me being impulsive, but I did it. I already ran out to the grocery store and voted. The lines were short at my polling place--thank goodness! On the news this morning, I saw lines wrapped around buildings. I'm definitely curious to see the outcome of this election!

I've had so much on my mind recently. I don't know if it's the pre-holiday blues, just knowing the end of the year is coming, or what. I started Christmas shopping a few weeks ago, and that was fun. It made me a little sad, though. Money is super tight this year. The gas prices over the summer really messed up the family budget, so there's just not as much to spend on gifts. And that's okay. I mean, Christmas isn't all about gifts, but I do get into the holiday spirit!

On a side note, I was kind of disappointed in myself last week. I've been doing my best to participate in Fit Friday/Hot for the Holidays plan, but I got bit carried away with the Halloween candy. The good news is that it's a new week and I gave away a lot of the candy. I haven't been able to do a full workout since last Thursday--I've had a cold, and the lingering congestion in my chest makes me wheeze, but even that's almost gone and I can get back to normal--whatever that is!

It was a beautiful morning. It's unseasonably warm, and I took a short walk just after the sun came up. It was beautiful, peaceful. There was a cool breeze on my face, the air smells like Autumn (even though it's 60 degrees!) and I just had a moment of feeling a little closer to God. And I don't have to work today, which is even better.

I'm off for now. I'm not doing any work, not doing any chores, nothing. I'm spending the day with my kiddo and right now, she's asking me to watch Scooby Doo with her, so off I go!

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Halloween and a Day

I hope everyone had a nice Halloween. I sure did! But I always feel like the day after Halloween is such a letdown. I have to wait another whole year to decorate my house with a bunch of creepy, scary things (I mean creepy, scary things other than my husband...), another whole year before I can delight in making a costume for my kiddo or indulge in a night's worth of chaotic trick-or-treating.


I'm kind of sad, but it's okay. Thanksgiving and Christmas are coming up quick!

Anyway, I've got a few pictures of my kiddo that I'll share.
This is the first one I took after more or less finishing her costume. She was thrilled with that billowy, black dress. And yes, the sewing machine in the background is my Grandma's 40-year-old Singer. The one that I thought went to that big Sewing Machine Junkyard in the Sky earlier this year. I got it running, but not well. It was enough so that I didn't have to sew the costume by hand. And you can ignore the Pooh characters on the wall. The old nursery is now a spare room and I never took down the decorations. Ooops.

This is the kiddo letting me know that she wasn't too happy about me delaying her trick-or-treating for five minutes so that I could take pictures. The light is a little washed out--don't know why--but it gives it a dreary look, which is oh-so-appropriate for Halloween. Oh yeah, I should mention that I painted two spiders on my daughter's face, but she wanted to do the rest of her own makeup. So I let her!

This one is the kiddo hamming it up after I told her that if she would let me take just one more picture, we could go to as many houses as she wanted. Don't you love that crooked, sideways glance she's giving the camera?

All in all, it was a good day. She had a little party at her pre-school in the morning, we had a fun time trick-or-treating in the late afternoon, then had a light dinner and cuddled on the couch watching Sleeping Beauty. After that, she was ready to go to sleep. And so was I. Come to think of it, I'm still wiped out. The kiddo wasn't sick this year for Halloween--the first time since she's been born!--but I've got a nasty, painful head cold. Ick. That being said, I'm going to lay down and face the fact that the house won't get cleaned until later.